The Lord hears

Psalm 34:17-18 is such a comfort to me. Jesus tells us that those who are courageous enough to grieve will be blessed and comforted. God draws near to us as we grieve. He is drawn to our vulnerability and suffering. He is here to comfort our broken hearts, soothe our fears, and give us hope. He is merciful to us during this grief process. He will bring us what we need to get through the grief, to get us to a better place emotionally. It is good to know that the Lord is close to the brokenhearted! He does not expect cheerfulness. God is compassionate and responsive. God is close—not far away.

Credit to Kim Fredrickson

Seeking God for guidance

Two meaningful messages from the Psalm of David that I resonated with in my existing situation. Bring me out of distresses, O Lord.

The Lord is my Shepherd

A beautiful reading in song of the much loved prayer of David.

Psalm 23:1-6

This is another wonderful reading in song of this comforting verses.

I will sing ….

Sharing a beautiful verse that stood out from tonight’s reading.

God answers Prayers

Psalm 6: 6-10

6 I am worn out from my groaning. All night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears. 7 My eyes grow weak with sorrow; they fail because of all my foes. 8 Away from me, all you who do evil, for the LORD has heard my weeping. 9 The LORD has heard my cry for mercy; the LORD accepts my prayer. 10 All my enemies will be overwhelmed with shame and anguish; they will turn back and suddenly be put to shame.

Heavenly Father,

thank You that You are a God that hears and answers prayer.

Help me to look to You to supply all my needs according to Your riches in glory.

Keep me from looking at the circumstances of life – but rather I pray that I may look to Christ, my Life and my Healer; My Shield and my Defender; My Hope and my Salvation.

And I pray that I never take Your precious promises for granted, but give You the reverence and glory due to Your name – this I ask in Jesus name, AMEN.

Be thou my vision

My Bible had gathered dust.

Life had been good until August 2019 (last year). Family, people and things I love and taken for granted were taken away from me. I experienced grief, sorrow and pain so agonising and excruciating that no words can describe.

The grief was so unbearable that I often I wish I was dead.

God sent good people my way and through their fellowship, today is my second day of reading the Bible again after so many years, God spoke to me in a song.

No matter where we are in life, the Lord is our light and our strength. He watches over us and stands by our side. The powerful lyrics of ‘Be Thou My Vision‘ are the perfect reminder of His love and presence.

For a detailed meaning of this powerful song, please click this link.

Psalm 1

Below or under

What immediately come into your mind if you were asked to ponder on what topic to write or talk about with the world BELOW.

With me as someone who promoted the HBO TV Series working in that line (though I didn’t follow it then and still haven’t watched it now) BELOW just made me think immediately of ‘6 feet under’.

Funnily enough, the series was titled ‘6 feet UNDER‘ and not BELOW. Either way, they mean the same thing to me. I probably thought of this immediately as I went through the most terrible and saddest year ever 2019 losing three loved ones from Dec 2018 to Oct 2019.  One good thing about it is they are no longer suffering but are angels in heaven (I want to believe that).

In happier times, I would probably be writing about 42 below.

If you’re from New Zealand, you will know and if not, that’s really pure vodka from New Zealand.

If you had been good during lockdown, do enjoy a sip of 42BELOW.

Is there a God?

I was brought up in a Buddhist family that practice ancestors worship, prayed in temples and set up altars during Chinese New Year to pray to the Kitchen God or Moon cake festival to pray to the Moon.

Neil Armstrong landed on the moon on July 20, 1969.  I was seven years old and as far as I remembered, we continued to ‘worshipped’ the moon till I was in my early teens.

I studied in a mission school and became a Christian (Anglican) against my family’s wishes. I was devoted then, memorized many verses in the bible. Growing up, life was good. As a teenager, I cried to my God and shared with Him my puppy loves. Nothing major happened.  My grandmother and then my uncle died. I was sad but I just accepted that old people die and that was what the song said

‘This world is not my home, I’m just passing through’.

When I was an adult, married with three children, life was still good. My children’s father and myself were divorced, not because of a third party. It was because we both put our career first and drifted apart. When that happened, I fell in love with a married man. I would have given my life to him as I never knew what love was until I met this man. He was a coward.  In times like those, there was still a God I cried to.  I moved on and migrated to another country.

In the midst of loneliness, God was still around. I overcame loneliness by doing things on my own and became such a strong and confident woman.

We were happy but 2019 was a turning point for me and then my whole family.  I was made redundant in July followed by a few bad events. The big blow was my middle daughter got sick in September and died in October. I prayed like I never prayed before and yet God still took her.

She passed away so suddenly and peacefully.  Today, as we are on our day two of lockdown from Covid19, I miss my daughter more than ever.  I am beginning to reflect and think.

Why did God allow my daughter to be sick?
Why did God allow her to die so young?

As we always say that everything happens for a reason.  The saying is easy but understanding this statement is so hard indeed.

As I ponder, reflect and think, I still do not know if there is a God up there. I want to think of my daughter as an angel in heaven but if there is no God, is there a place we call heaven?

“Dear God, please be real, be here for me and for the world fighting Covid19.
Let our loved ones who died live as beautiful angels in heaven. 
Castaway Covid19, take away our anxieties and bring back our happiness. 
We know You can do this because You care for us and You will protect us.  Amen”