A demon and an angel

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She has been battling depression for over a decade.
No one other than her doctor knows of her sickness.
She suffers emotional loneliness and agony, not so much physical pain.

Wearing an invisible veil, she walks around with a smile on her face.
Day in and day out.

In dark hours, she did things intentionally to harm herself.
Going to a bar and drink till she was no longer sober
Feeding the slot machines when she no longer see the value of money.

Suffering insomnia too …………….
One night, she did something she had never ever done before.
She physically destroyed her dearest possession to punish herself.

Life goes on.
Often you see her smile, she hardly cries.
Day in and day out.

She knows she is a demon when inside the window.
Outside the window, many see her as an angel.

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This story is in the present tense as our demon and angel is battling within to find herself.

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Night eating disorder

Are you or do you know anyone who is into repetitive night time eating even though he or she is not hungry?

I know of a close one who raided the pantry for snacks at night and more lately into full meals like leftovers or instant noodles.

Perhaps this is due to the fact that (let’s call this person S) S suffers from insomnia and depression.  S is a beautiful and kind person.  Unless you are close friends with S, you would not have guessed what goes on in S’s life.

This bothers me and I did a little research and found that S has SRED.

SRED as savage as it sounds is more than binge eating.

It is also important to distinguish between sleep-related eating disorder, (SRED) a disorder which has received a significant amount of media attention, and night eating syndrome. People with SRED eat while sleepwalking, or while in a twilight state between sleep and being awake. People with SRED are not aware of what they’re doing, and often they may wake up to discover dishes or food  in their bed, and have no memory of eating at all. A high percentage of these patients typically use prescription sleeping medications.  By contrast, those with night eating syndrome are fully awake and aware of what they are consuming–with no memory deficits or lack of recall for their nightly eating rituals.

One theory is that night eating syndrome involves a disruption in the hormones that regulate sleep, appetite, and mood–specifically, an alteration or disruption in the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal axis.  It is possible that night eating syndrome may be a form of “self-medication”, since a large proportion of snacking late at night generally involves carbohydrate-rich or “comfort” type foods.

S is conscious to his/her eating disorder but S makes no effort to dieting or healthy eating.  S told me that food is his/her source of comfort and is something he/she looks forward to every night.  S uses food to combat his/her feeling of loneliness, depression or other negativity in his/her life which seems to appear only at night.  In the day time, S goes to work like everyone else and S is friendly and seems to be surrounded by friends (or acquaintances).

I see S as a beautiful person, his/her regular eating during meal times is gentle (no over eating) yet S’s SRED in the dread of the night is a concern that other people do not know about.  Only S and others in the same household can see the other side of S.  S may be crying out for help but is help available to someone who has depression, someone who pops sleeping pills nightly to get a good night’s sleep and someone who has SRED (Sleep-related Eating Disorder) ?

Are you really what you eat?

If the notion that to be fit and healthy you need to eat good food, then perhaps S can feed his/her SRED with brain food.

We need different foods at certain times of our lives – for example, a pre-schooler and an elderly woman have vastly different food requirements because the youngster is growing and very active, while the ageing process causes us to slow down.

If you really have to snack, snack it right !

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Let’s pray that S and those in the same situation will overcome their eating disorder.

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Only temporary

Temporary
often conjures up feelings of instability or uncertainty.

Something to be avoided.

Temporary
can take you out of your comfort zone,
where you have to be more aware of your surroundings,
other people, and your actions.

Life is no longer on auto-pilot.

Temporary is not comfortable to many people,
but a healthy dose, helps you to appreciate who you are,
what you have, and what is missing in your life.

Fear not of any bitter situation for they are only temporary.

Don’t let any setbacks bring you down,
they are supposed to build you up !

Live life to the full, pursue your dreams.

Contributed by guest blogger, B.Silcock

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Lonelines led to Cuddle Parties

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I was at my local café yesterday.  While sipping my caramel latte and waiting for my brunch of ‘Singapore Laksa’, I read an article in the Woman’s Weekly.

As I was alone, the topic I was reading hit on me.  Did I mind being alone that moment?  Probably not, as it was a Thursday and most people I hang out with were out working so I took my own sweet time doing what I wanted to do.  It was nobody’s business.

Back to the article titled The Loneliness Generation said “We used to live in a society and now we live in an economy”

I thought that was really true.  I tried to connect people in so many ways.  I run a Meet Up group for my local area and am a Lead in the Neighbourly (an online application where neighbours connect).  Neighbourhood Day is next weekend and I tried to organize a Bash but there were no interest.

Indeed loneliness is increasingly common in our modern society.  Many of us are loath to admit it.  Most pretty much do nothing about it.  We just can’t seem to help ourselves.  We long for a stronger sense of community and yet we prize individualism.

As I read more into that article, it mentioned about “Cuddle Party” or “Puppy Piles”.  I have never heard of it but this is happing in the United States and beyond.

Cuddle parties are described by organizers as “workshop/social-events” that give adults an opportunity to “give and receive welcomed affectionate touch in a no-expectation, friendly setting, according to your needs, desires, interests, and boundaries.” Cuddle parties are described as nonsexual events and commonly kissing is not allowed.

A cuddle party is a group experience, while the one-on-one analog is a cuddlebuddy relationship.  They may be referred to as a “puppy pile party” or “Contact Comfort Gathering”.

It doesn’t sound like my kind of thing.  In New Zealand, we do not pay to cuddle.  Sometimes strolling in the city streets, I came across girls wearing a big cupboard sign hung over their neck saying “Free Hugs” or “Embrace Me”.  I guess the society needs that.

Longing for some cuddles?  Sleep with a teddy bear or a pet.

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via Daily Prompt, Help – Free Hugs, Embrace Me, Cuddle Party, Puppy Piles